Leap of Faith
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DEDICATION
To my amazing family and much love to
Catherine, Leo, Ella, Mia, Tallula and Rocco
CONTENTS
Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Note to Readers
Dedication
PROLOGUE
1. FATHER
2. RESPONSIBILITY
3. ASCOT
4. NEWMARKET
5. KNOCKDOWN
6. INSPIRED
7. ENABLE
PICTURE SECTION
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
About the Publisher
PROLOGUE
SATURDAY, 6 JUNE 2015
Derby Day. There’s nothing else like it.
It’s our Super Bowl, our Wimbledon, our Monaco Grand Prix. It’s the race I dreamed of winning as a young kid on a pony back in Milan. It’s the greatest race in the world.
I slept badly, as I always do the night before. There’s something almost reassuring about that now: it’s how I know I’m up for it. The night I get eight hours’ uninterrupted kip before the Derby is the day I hang up my boots for good. I used to shy away from the nerves, but now I’m older and (apparently) wiser, I embrace them: I know they’re what I need to help me perform at my best. If I didn’t get nervous for this kind of moment, I wouldn’t have a soul. I carry that sense of people’s expectations: I feel that everything I do today, even the smallest thing, will be under the microscope. It’s horrible, but it’s great. I wouldn’t swap it for the world.
I make my own coffee, as I always do. Espresso: hot, black, strong and Italian.
The kids have made a banner for me. GOOD LUCK, DADDY, it says, draped across the kitchen window. I fight back the tears. It’s not just that they’re old enough now to know what this means – Leo’s 15, Ella’s 14, Mia’s 12, Tallula’s 11 and Rocco’s 10 – it’s that even by Derby standards, this one promises to be special.
It’s the first one I’ve ridden in four years. For pretty much all my career before that, I rode the Derby every year: 19 out of 20 years, and the one I missed was only because I’d almost been killed in an aircraft crash 10 days before. And then it all went to shit. Out of favour at the stables I’d been with for so long. Suspended for taking cocaine. And then, when I returned, the forgotten man, the ghost of Derbies past who couldn’t beg, steal or borrow a mount on the biggest day of all.
Until now.
I kiss the kids goodbye one by one, followed by my wife Catherine. Last year, when things were so bad I considered walking away from the sport altogether, she sat me down and gave it to me straight. ‘You keep telling me how fucking good you are,’ she said. ‘Well, now’s the time to show it.’
Now’s the time indeed. I hug her hard. She’s been there for me through all the ups and downs, and we’ve had more of both than the Big Dipper on Blackpool Beach. She puts up with my moods and my neuroses. When I say that I couldn’t have done any of this without her, I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I drive the short distance to Newmarket, where the helicopter’s waiting. It’s less flash than it sounds. A lot of jockeys are based around here, and traffic on a Saturday can be horrendous, so clubbing together for a helicopter ride is a no-brainer. It’s 40 minutes or so to Epsom, and the journey passes largely in silence. There’s usually a lot of chat between jockeys – we spend so long together and know each other so well that the banter and in-jokes come thick and fast – but today everyone prefers to be alone with their thoughts. I look out of the window at the great sprawl of London below and count the racecourses I can see, the places I know like the back of my hand and which have seen so many of my triumphs and disasters. Ascot, Kempton Park, Sandown and Windsor in the distance out west; Lingfield, Brighton and Goodwood up ahead to the south.
Almost before I know it, we’re here. Out of the helicopter and into the special hum of Epsom at its finest.
I’m riding Golden Horn today, so I look for his trainer, John Gosden. It’s not long before I see him, but then again it’s not hard to spot someone who’s 6-foot-5 and wears the most distinctive fedora in racing.
If it weren’t for John, I wouldn’t be here. This is the second time in my career he’s backed me when no one else would, and I’m determined to repay his faith. We might appear an odd couple – he’s 20 years older and a foot taller than me for starters, and he’s old-school British ice cool whereas I’m Italian fire – but he totally gets me and understands me. There are few trainers as good as him – and even fewer human beings. I love working with him. We’re as happy as a pair of old lags doing one last job together.
‘Come on,’ he says. ‘Let’s walk the course.’
I do this every Derby Day. It’s partly to get a sense of how firm the ground is, as every horse has its preferred conditions and you have to adjust your race tactics accordingly. It’s partly tradition and routine: I’ve done it so often now that I’d feel unsettled if I didn’t. And it’s partly to soak up the atmosphere, which even a few hours before the big race of the afternoon is already buzzing. I see the funfair, smell barbecues, hear the sizzle of meat and the happy chatter. People cheer when they see me. A chant goes up: ‘Fran-kie! Fran-kie! Fran-kie!’ I smile, wave at them, perform a mock bow. John smiles. He’s seen it all before. He knows how much of a showman I am – it’s racing, it’s entertainment, so why shouldn’t I be? – but he knows too that for me being a jockey comes first and last. To the public, I’m Frankie. On the race card and on my racing breeches, I’m L. Dettori: L for Lanfranco and, if I win this, L for Lazarus too. Frankie’s the showman; L. D
ettori’s the jockey. Two parts of a whole.
The course is a mile and a half long, so it takes us about half an hour to walk it. It’s one of the most testing flat-racing tracks on the planet, not least because in the first half mile it rises 150 feet, almost the height of Nelson’s Column. From the stalls at the start, it’s like looking up a mountain. You can’t win the race in that first half mile, but you can definitely lose it. I know not to go out too fast or be too far back; I know not to be stuck behind a bad horse or boxed in on the rails. I also know that Golden Horn’s the favourite, and he’s so strong that all I need to do is keep out of trouble and let him do the rest. The ground is good, firm in parts: perfect for him to show his pace.
The track flattens off at the mile post before starting to go downhill. The climb will take a lot out of Golden Horn, so this is where I’ll get him to relax, get his breath back, let him freewheel a bit and fill those massive lungs full of oxygen, because then the track starts to descend into Tattenham Corner and the horses begin to speed up again. It’s easy to get there too quickly and just as easy to sit too long. Some horses find that their legs can’t keep up with it and they start dropping back: downhill into a left turn is trickier than it looks on TV, especially when there are a dozen horses all going for more or less the same piece of turf. I remember the words of Lester Piggott, maybe the greatest of them all, to me many years ago: ‘If you’re out of position going down the hill, don’t try to make up ground. Wait for the straight.’ Because in that home straight is where it all plays out, where you find out whether you and the horse have it or you don’t. What you can’t do on the straight is get trapped on the inside: the track is cambered from right to left, so when horses start to tire they move across and down the hill towards the running rail.
We walk past the three furlong marker. I look at John. He shakes his head. ‘Not here,’ he says. He indicates the two furlong marker up ahead. ‘There. Don’t press the button till two out.’
‘Exactly my thoughts,’ I say. Three out might be too far. But from two out, if Golden Horn goes the way I know he can then even a brick wall won’t stop him.
There are seven races here today, and the Derby, which goes off at 4.30 p.m., is the fifth. Even for the biggest race of all, you rarely, if ever, get to have just that and no others. Today I’m lucky: I’ve only got one other ride, the Investec Private Banking Handicap at 2 p.m., in which I finish fourth on Dutch Uncle. Then I can just relax – try to relax – in the weighing room. I watch the other races on TV: William Buick winning on Buratino, Pat Dobbs on Pether’s Moon, and Martin Lane on Desert Law. The clock hands crawl, race, crawl again.
Now, finally, it’s time.
I put on the silks of Anthony Oppenheimer, Golden Horn’s owner: white and black halves, red cap. Very simple, very striking. We go out to the parade ring, where the lads are leading the horses round for the spectators. No matter how many times I’ve been in a parade ring, and that’s literally tens of thousands, the sight of thoroughbreds at their peak always makes me catch my breath. The way their coats gleam, the criss-crossing of veins beneath the skin, the muscles rippling as they walk: it’s one of the most beautiful sights on God’s earth.
John gives me a leg-up onto Golden Horn. Instantly I try to sense how he’s feeling (the horse, not the trainer!) and let him know in return how I am. My mood comes down to him through the reins and the saddle: the way I sit, the way I hold him. Here we are, I say to him. We’re the best in the field. Run like you can and no one else can touch you. I believe in you.
Golden Horn’s alert, energised, engaged. I smile. Some horses can be detached and not really there, others can get too excited or overwhelmed by the occasion and are spent before the race even begins. Golden Horn’s in that sweet spot between the two. My job is to keep him there.
We leave the ring and go onto the course, past the finish line and canter all the way up to the start. The noise is deafening, and yet I know it’s only a fraction of what it will be in a few minutes’ time when we come back down here for real. The stands on the outside of the home straight are heaving – packed, solid walls of humanity – and inside the rails spectators are packed ten deep all the way, not just along the straight but round Tattenham and up the hill too.
‘Go, Frankie! You can do it, Frankie!’
This time I don’t acknowledge them. I’m in the zone now: just me, my horse and the race we’re going to run.
The race we’re going to win.
Flashes of colour in my vision, the brightness of my rivals’ silks: deep blue and orange; pink, white and green; yellow, red and black. Burgundy caps, red caps, black caps. I don’t give them more than a glance. It’s tempting to try to get a look at who’s playing up and who’s not, but at this stage that’s not going to do much good. I’ll see how the others are running in the race itself. Until then it’s just noise.
The handlers ease our horses into the stalls and close the gates behind us. I’m drawn in stall eight, two-thirds of the way to the outside: a good draw, neither too low nor too high.
All the horses are in now. At the very edge of my peripheral vision I can sense Epicuris, drawn right on the inside, playing up. There’ll be a second till we’re released, maybe two. No more.
I take a deep breath. This is it.
Then the gates open. A dozen of the best three-year-olds in the world lunge forward, and we’re off and running to a mighty roar from the crowd.
Showtime.
1
FATHER
My grandfather Mario tells me stories.
Even though I don’t understand half of what he’s talking about, I’m rapt as I sit and listen to him. There’s something about him. Presence, that’s it. He’s not tall – 5-foot-2, maximum – but he’s a man’s man: tough, stubborn, hard as nails. His face is weathered from a life spent outside, and scored in the lines on his skin are the trials which life throws at you when you’re a Sardinian builder in tough times.
‘It was the early 1940s, Lanfranco,’ he says. ‘I was doing odd building jobs, earning money where I could. Sometimes I went down the mines at Carbonia, which Mussolini himself had opened only a few years before. An entire city built to house the miners and their families. Imagine that! Even the name gives you a clue. Carbonia. Coaltown.
‘Then Italy joined the war and Hitler invaded Russia, and soon Sardinia was heaving with German soldiers. At least there was no fighting on the island. I was called up and made to live full-time in barracks, which was a bit of a problem because your nonna, your grandmother, lived 30 miles away from the camp. I’d cycle over to see her whenever I could, but the bikes were useless and the tyres worse, so whenever I got a puncture I’d have to mend it with whatever I could, sometimes just stuffing straw inside the rim, and keep on going. But of course that slowed things up, and one day the inevitable happened. I didn’t make it back to camp in time one Monday morning, so they put me on a charge and locked me in a cell for a month.’
‘Did you stop going to see Nonna?’
‘Ha! Not a chance. The second time it happened they tied me to a pole in the middle of a courtyard and left me there for several days, maybe a week. There were ants crawling all over my body, making me itch like crazy, but of course my hands were tied so I couldn’t scratch them. I shook the pole so hard that I broke it clean in two. Of course, they put me back in the cell to teach me a lesson good and proper.
‘But Lanfranco, we Dettoris are resolute in matters of the heart. Once I’d completed my sentence I rushed off to see your nonna again, and again I didn’t get back in time. This time there was no escaping serious punishment. I was sent to the front at Monte Cassino, south of Rome. This was early in 1944. There was a famous old monastery there which the British and Americans were trying to capture, because it was in a strategically vital position. Four times in four months they attacked before finally breaking through.
‘It was a blo
odbath. Rain fell for weeks on end, and the only way I managed to keep myself from sinking into the mud at night was by sleeping on a lilo, like I was in some posh swimming pool or something. We were in these trenches, and the first thing I learned was this: if you want to be shot at, put your head above the parapet. You did that, you had about a second until the enemy started firing. So I kept low, and the only injury I got was a small scratch on my arm from a stray bullet.’
Now my father Gianfranco tells me how he came to get started.
‘I was working for your grandfather in the building trade. He’d done 20 years’ mining before starting his own business, and me and your uncles, we were all involved. I mixed cement, someone else carried the cement, someone got the sand, someone got the bricks. Hard work, mixing cement for 10 hours a day with no reward other than a bowl of pasta with beans, a roof over my head and just enough money to go to the cinema. It wasn’t the hard work I minded, it was the feeling that there was more to life than this. I was educated, I’d been to school till I was 16. After months of hard labour, I couldn’t see any sort of future. One day I’d just had it up to here with the whole thing. I hurled my bucket and shovel into a well and told Mario, “I’m leaving.”’
‘What did he say?’
‘He yelled that I needn’t bother coming back.’
Whoever said the Dettoris are stubborn?
‘What did you do?’
‘I just about had the price of a ticket for the ferry to the mainland. I headed for Rome and found a job washing plates in a restaurant. Then I moved on to a second restaurant where I lived in the cellar, but one night it poured with rain, the cellar flooded and everything I owned got swept away. I had nothing, but I figured I didn’t need anything anyway. All I cared about was chasing girls, smoking cigarettes and exploring life, so I worked like hell to pay for my fun. I switched from washing dishes to selling fruit and veg at a market stall, and one of the other stall holders was a copper who owned three trotting horses.